Wednesday, April 05, 2006

adrift..afloat..out of control.....

“I am scared of this love,
Lest I lose it !
I am scared of this love,
What if I cannot keep it with me ?”

Love is powerful, can one ignore it?

It drew me close with its sweet smell, and I followed absolutely mesmerized.
Now I am scared lest I get intoxicated by its fragrance – my mind absolutely overpowered and clouded – so much so that my life seems to be reduced to just regaling in the sensuality of its sweetness.

It drew me close like a brook does – swift, fresh sparkling water flowing in its glory. I was captivated by the shiny silver water and the sweet gurgling sound….
I kept flowing with the current, felt the liquid softness wash over me, caress me ,till the fear of being drowned started setting in – the harsh reality, the hard stones hurting at the bottom, bruising me as the brook dragged me along.

It drew me close like the green hills….it was fascinating like the cool autumn breeze and I felt it against my face as I closed my eyes, spread my hands wide and ran down the slope…….fast and faster till suddenly I realized I had lost control – was just running uncontrollably – almost into a dark abyss ; dark only because I had my eyes shut !

Before I realized, it was too late.
I had lost my love.
More importantly, I had lost myself.
Perhaps I could never understand love, life, either? Both?
Ignorance is bliss.
Do I want it?


Sandipta said...

love is a feeling.. not to be understood rather to feel. and a feelign cant be gained or lost.. it can only be expressed or felt!
ignorant is bliss.. but do u want to ignore it... or would like to create it ...as its never too late!

waise.. well written..!

x said...

teri maa ki chut....!!!!
bhosari wali randi sali..!!!